Depression isn't just feeling 'sad' all the time
Depression can be a debilitating condition but it can affect different people in different ways. Here, Aaron shares how his depression manifests itself in his day-to-day life. Have you experienced depression? Is your experience similar to Aaron's? Let us know in the comments below.
Trigger warning: this blog discusses self-harm
Not showering for three days straight
From day to day I find it hard to get into a routine of showering, it may sound like a simple task but when I don't feel myself or I'm having one of my down days it does not seem so important and I do not realise its been so long since I last had a shower.
Knowing you have things to do but not doing them
Knowing I have things to do like painting a room or even washing dishes can be such a chore when living with depression, as everything seems so pointless. Everything is so hard to do as all I seem to want to do is just sit in a corner and do nothing and it's so hard to motivate myself to do anything without the help of others.
Not being able to sleep
I do not sleep well at night for reasons I do not know, and when I do sleep I never find I sleep enough. Throughout the day I'm just so tired and want to do nothing which affects my everyday tasks. I just feel sometimes I want to sleep and not wake up as I'm so much happier in my dream world.
It may sound weird but I enjoy self-harming. It's something I have been dealing with for a while now, it's hard to understand but I like the pain of it and it's hard to explain that to people.
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Losing my memory and concentration
My memory and concentration has been effected, it became so bad that it affected my work which I was off for nearly a year. I have just gone back to work and I can not concentrate for long periods of time. My concentration just dissappears. I cannot remember most of the things I did the previous day - as much as I try it does not happen.
Depression affects people in many different ways. These are just some of the ways it affects me.
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