Yashas' story: my battle with depression

‘Why journalism is my answer to depression’

It is often said that in the darkest moments of our lives, one glimmer of hope calls out to us. However, the cloud under which we live seems never to pass. Every difficult minute takes its toll, and the downward spiral just continues. 

During my battle with depression, I reached a moment of despair and agony. However, one hope came into my life: sports journalism. I’ve taken my chance with it, and it’s been one hell of a ride. There have been many things that I have learned through this process, but three things stand out in my fight to thrive, not just survive. 

Innocent exuberance overshadows inexperience 

When discussing the taboo subject of depression, many people mention the need to start new things. “Try something new. What is there to lose?” 

What if things go wrong? The prospect of another failed attempt often stops us from trying something that may ultimately be the most successful thing we do. For me, writing had that feeling. It appealed because it gave me the chance to learn about people’s opinions. Seeing how other people react to my views finally gave me a moment where I felt I could have meaningful conversations. However scary the first few months of writing seemed, it was all really worth it. So, take the chance and give it 100%. That is the only thing we need. 

Mistakes and errors are all part of the process 

Let’s face the facts. No one wants to be the person who makes a mistake that everyone in the world can see. When you can’t rectify that mistake, the shame simply intensifies. But then we are missing the wood for the trees. 

In many of my articles, there have been spelling mistakes and grammatical errors. I was expecting to be bombarded with messages of me needing to improve before I write again, but that never happened. That feeling was only mine, and people would never point out my errors in a derogatory manner. People understand mistakes, and we should remove that fear from our minds. Getting things wrong gives us the chance to learn, and the beauty of that opportunity should not be underestimated. I’m trying to say, don’t be afraid to make mistakes. 

Passion is the most important thing 

I have left this point to last because I feel everyone has heard this before, but it is really the most vital. However hard we try, we will never be great at something we don’t enjoy. Enjoyment gives us a moment of happiness. The power of that moment should be treasured forever, and we should try our best to recreate it as often as possible. 

For me, that passion is writing about a sporting event that has captured the public imagination, but it could be anything. Running, reading, or even just a desire to be able to talk to people. Whatever the passion is, it will really help you in the most difficult moments - so find your calling. 

There you have it. My story is still far from complete, and every day is still a new learning opportunity. But I’m grateful I found journalism. It’s the thing that gets me going and lets me thrive and not just survive. 

If you think you struggle with depression, you can learn more about how to cope and get help on our page about depression.
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